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You're the candy to my life.
Sunday, June 22, 2014 • 10:37 PM • 0 comments

Life has been good to me. yupp. I've been fine since the last time I posted, which is in April, whoops. I basically have nothing much to post, but I've been hanging out with #theshafamily for the past weeks and I love to be out with them. I mean, they spice up my life, makes it less boring and they are fun to be with! Band practices are gonna be hectic for the next few weeks until SIBF, which means I have to work double-dee-hard. I am lacking behind, hoohoo. I have so many parts to clarify and conquer, yet i ain't putting in enough effort to conquer them. Took up Korean Language studies too, which i've been saying 'I am gonna learn Korean' for the past 5 years lol. This time I bought a workbook and am currently working on it :D improvement and big investment because the workbook is not cheap, heol~ But apparently, my Korean understanding is higher than beginners lol. Too much dramas, variety shows and reading into song lyrics. I'm not boasting, but it's the truth... I can understand a little more than average beginners can. oh well. This days, I have so much to do, yet so little time. I have to 'stalk' all the fansites I bookmarked and study Korean. It's been more than a week since I touched my korean workbook. whoops. Okay. I'm gonna dedicate my night stalking fansites because I'm so lazy to hold a pen right now. byonggg~

oh~~ yeah~


Happy 24th Birthday, Luhan!
Sunday, April 20, 2014 • 12:46 AM • 0 comments

Happy 24th Birthday to my dearest Luhan!

I have so much to say. Thank you for being part of a bundle of joy brought into this world?
Yes. If you follow me on twitter, instagram or meet me often enough, you'll realise that most of my time revolves around this guy. I hate to admit, I spend so much time on this guy who doesn't even know my existance. ouch the sad life of a fangirl. Whatever! It's his birthday, and there are so many tragedies happening during his birthday period. Last year, it was Sichuan's earthquake. This year, it's Sewol sinking. We, fans, have not trended his birthday and only wished him and did charity under his name. I feel so blessed although the period of time during his birthday is always filled with tears around the world. But Luhan, don't hate yourself for being borned in this period of the year okay? We still love you. & wishes you all the best.

Thank you for being the guy who can make me smile despite the hard times. You know, every little action you do, is enough to make me smile and giggle like a little kid. 

Your voice is like an angel, it does magic to my mood. You have no idea how much I love it.
Your dance can be cutest, yet the sexiest, killing millions of fangirls. Me included.
 

You act like a kid, when you're borned in 1990... & also the 2nd eldest in exo

 Do you have any idea how much your simple smile affects me in all kinds of ways? It's my little magic to my mood.

and even if you say you look ugly. I still feel so happy.

What is ugly, honestly.
Nothing is ugly when it comes to you.

I'm not even joking. The ugliest facial expression you can make isn't ugly.

Even when you eat, you're so cute. I don't understand why is there someone so perfect like you.

Oh and yes. Soccer. You're such a MVP when it comes to soccer. How. How can you be so suave and cute while playing soccer. Plus, you play it so well. Despite your looks.

You've once said that if you are not an idol, you would pursue music or soccer. I support you. You have the talents to do both.

You're like the bad boy in my life. Turning everything upside down. I'm like cray cray over you, even to others who don't understand me, are finding this blog post hilarious to begin with. Why luhan.


You're magical.
"Thank you thank you"

Thank you for the enjoyable months I've been in this fandom and loving you!
I hope you'll be able to celebrate this special day with your buddies, like what your buddies intended to do. and also able to meet your family, although you're in Nanjing and not Beijing. Smile Luhan. I'll support you throughout! Do whatever you like, be yourself, smile as ugly as you think, just be yourself!


You're scared of heights.
But you bared with that fear and stood on a high moving structure for us during one of the Gayo Daejuns. Thank you really. All fans feel your sacrifice for us.
You were actually clinging onto the pole for your dear life before the performance started. But once the music began, you let go a hand and acted cool. Thank you so much.


鹿晗啊 生日快乐!

有你的存在,是我的幸福。



I don't want love.
Saturday, April 19, 2014 • 11:27 PM • 0 comments

This few days has been quite fun. Went to Angie's house with Felice, Alicia, Valerie and Szeying to watch EXO's First Box together! It was fun spazzing and laughing together. Szeying left earlier though ): . Sad and worried that she left earlier because she felt left out and her presence is not needed... Girl! How wrong are you. Very! You meant a lot okay. Try to fit in and talk. We won't leave you out. You and Wanping is different!!

After that, went out for dinner with Angie, Felice and 3 other guys. Apparently, 2 of the guys are guys they met from the chatting app Meow, and the other guy is a friend of one of them. Angie and her guy is so cute la! Felice and the guy she met were having quite some problems... I don't approve of their relationship tbh. It's just hurting her. They tried to match me and a guy, but really... I'm not ready for a new love. I don't want to get into a relationship. It'll only stress me out. It was awkward for both of us tbh. I've been distancing myself from him too. and luckily, we don't talk much.

We took photos at the end of the day, but I feel horrible tbh. It was quite a fun dinner gathering, but I don't even dare to look at the photos we took. I deleted them from my camera roll. All. Everything we took at the dinner gathering. I deleted them. yes I did. Because I feel the horrible feeling I had from my past. The stressful & forced to love kind of feeling.

Sometimes I talk like a love guru to my friends, but me myself... I'm no guru with my own love. I was silly, dumb and stupid in my past relationship. I can never forget that experience, especially when it was my first. I regret the relationship so much to the point where I don't want to fall in love and foolishly feel the same horrible feeling all over again. I reflect, and tell myself to be smarter with guys. I am, but I am afraid I'll forget whatever I told myself to be cautious with.

I'm not ready for another love.



Felice if you read this, I want you to know that I don't want to be matched with any guys. I want to let love come to myself naturally. I don't want to be infatuated with a guy whom I'm constantly teased with. Because I've been teased with other guys a couple of times, and it sucks when I look back at it now. I felt like 'I have a little feelings for him' during the period of time, but after some time, I realise it's all infatuation. It's caused by constant teasing where I will slowly develop slight 'feelings' for the someone which might not be truly the 'i like you' kind of feeling. I appreciate what you were doing all this time, but I really don't want to feel the horrible I had in the past. I'm over my past relationship. But I hate the horrible feeling of being stressed to love. I know whatever you did was to also help him, but I don't think I can help, nor I should be the one to help. Because honestly, I myself need more time to understand myself.


A bundle of joy.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014 • 1:46 AM • 0 comments

It's been over 4 months since my last blog post... I was lazy, I admit (: . Lot's of things happened in the last 4 months; I met and made new friends, my first-times and being out of my box, or cave!

(I'm backtracking all the way to January, with the help of viewing my Instagram photos)



I finally have a helix piercing! I've been wanting to get it since eons, and I finally done it! My mom wasn't too approving of it, but she was the one paid for it and watched me get it done. Thank you umma (:



Chinese New Year! In our family, we always buy lots of yummy goodies, and this is what you see every Chinese New Year in our house! It's hard to say that no one gets fat.



& I did my nails just for this occasion in a fabulous lovely colour! It's called Mysterious by Revlon, and it's the same colour as Super Junior's Official colour, Sapphire Blue! ELF for life!



Love this girls♡♡♡ My sem 2 clique♡ H2DY; Hannah, Hairun, Diana, Yashini.
Diana was so sweet to make us a board for each of us on the last day of school (: !



YESSS! It's The Music of Joe Hisaishi! You have no idea how much I love his music. I went to watch this concert with my cousins & their fam! They are huge lovers of his music too. Too bad that the conductor wasn't the great man himself, it was the SSO's (: But the music was awesome! I love how they sound, and I got those goosebumps because it's too damn good!


Twinned Poison 1st Photobook + DVD; When I Found You.
istg, it was purely 'omg' , 'AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA', 'WTF', 'FUUUU', etc when I opened it up and look at everything. IT WAS SO SINFUL TO MY HEART. The sad thing was I received 2 similar photocards ): sighs. but everything else was good!!!!



I've been wanting to learn Korean since eons. & I finally settled down!! But sadly after that day, I didn't have the time to touch on it anymore ): I GOT TO STUDY IT AGAIN SOON. LIKE REAL SOON.



HIGHER BRASS CAMP AT WOODLANDS WATERFRONT!!! Although it was just the 4 of us, because the rest couldn't make it ); It was super fun and we even got to see SHOOTING STARS!!!! I SAW A SHOOTING STAR! It's so beautiful and spectacular! I want to see it again in future (: It was pretty awkward staying at Woodlands Waterfront because everyone who walked past us, they judged us lmao. 'Why are they sleeping here?'. & My friends said I slept like a burrito, I was wrapped with my sleeping bag lmao.



Do you see what I see? I have the full set of EXO Nature Republic standees^^ OMG I LOVE IT.



The first time I met Felice! & The first time I went out with EXO Fanclub Singapore admins casually! We were shopping for Luhan's & Sehun's birthday gifts! It was so much fun omg. & They are so friendly^^ and easy to talk to.


HIGHER BRASSES ICE SKATING OUTING.
It was damn fun, and I want to skate again!!! Although I injured my right feet's bone a little, like orh ce. & I didn't fall!!! Thanks to whoever who taught me to roller blade the last time!



Being Luhan biased, and I just love him so much, I made and bought him presents for his birthday! I made a scrapbook filled with messages and photos of him and exo. Thanks to some EXO Fanclub Singapore admins, I finished all from scratch in a day!!! Although I was a long and tiring day for everyone, I really am thankful to them! I bought the spectacles from Lowrys Farm, & istg the service sucks... I travelled from place to place just to be told that it was the last pair or wrong design!!! ugh. In the end, I had to give him a last pair in the store ): I hope he'll like it.



Be jealous. heh. I got both versions of EXO's Nature Republic photocards!! I actually have so many photocards, that I can play poker with them lol.



I met up with boss Angie and yeobo Felice at Angie's place to pack and finish up things for EXO's 2nd Anniversary Gathering! We camwhored, tried different ways to tie the bandana and tried out a few games. & also joked like mad hahahaha omg.



So during admins day, 4th April, admins were at EXO's 2nd Anniversary Gathering's venue to put things up and try out the games. It wasn't a very fruitful day, but it was full of fun and laughter! I super love them! & This is me with Luhan on our huge ass banner!!!
THIS IS HOW BIG THE BANNER IS. Everyone who walked passed the chalet, was judging us lmao. EXO, EXO!

Polaroids taken on our first night at the chalet :D only the 4 of us stayed overnight^^ We slept at 4:30AM, and rised at 9:00AM, homaigawd.

5th April♡; There was about 42 people here & It's so awesome on the day of the gathering!!! Everyone had fun and even though it was busy for all admins, we all had fun!!! ^^ Thank you everyone who came!! I met and made many new friends :D even our LINE chat explodes with notifications in every minute of the day...♡


On the second night, we played drinking game! I was sober omg. I didn't get drunk despite I've never drank a can by myself before. I drank about 3/4 of a can? & It was Dester beer. It didn't taste that bad, but the rest said the taste was very strong ;-; .... I guess it's because it has a similar taste to Heneiken and I did trained myself to drink with Heneiken by drinking 1 or 2 mouths from my dad's beer lol.

I bought Ranch flavored Pringles, and homaigawd. It's so heavenly. I love this.

Last day at the chalet! It is just the 4 of us again! But Samantha replaced Shermaine because Sher was homesicked ;-; ! Everyone was bareface lol. Love you all!♡

Not intended couple tee with boss Angie on the last day♡

During this few days, I felt that everything that happened is a bless to me. I got to meet with so many people and got out of my cave. I let out my crazy side, and no one judges me. I was myself, & honestly, I could only be very myself when I am out with my Shadow Cities fam. Now with this group of people, I can be very myself too. I was chitty chitty chatty chatty, not a quiet and reserved girl you see in school. I love every one of them♡ Esp. my admins fam who put in so much effort and work to make this successful!♡


!!LONG ASS MUSHY LOVEY DOVEY FILLED WITH HEARTS VERBAL VOMIT BELOW!!



♡ #2yearsWithEXO ♡

In the beginning, in 2012, I wasn't a fan of them. News of a new boy group came out in 2011, with 12 members. 12 m e m b e r s. Can you believe it? It's so similar to the number of members in Super Junior. As an ELF(SJ fan), I held a foolish hatred on them. "They are Super Junior's replacement.", such thoughts are in every ELF's head when they saw the news of this new group. So did I. I did listened to their title tracks, and I told myself, "Do not fall for them. Do not like them. They sucks.". Such thoughts lingered in me. But honestly, they don't.

However, who knew that they would be a big part of me right now?

After over a year since their debut, I tried to shove the foolish hatred aside. I began to like them, and became a fan of them.

They made me smile, laugh, cry and scream like a mad girl. Any kind of emotions you can think of, I've experienced it for being in this fandom. In this fandom, I met lots of wonderful and awesome people (see the photos on top). EXO is like my little bundle of joy brought into the world. I can't explain how much I love them. Every talent, every flaw, I love them all. No one is perfect, but they seem perfect for me.

Today marks their debut 2nd Anniversary, still a young age of a group, but the amount of love they receive is huge. & I'm proud to be here for them, celebrating it with them and many other fans.

EXO 사랑하자!♡



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